As an infant we see this world differently. Everything is more colorful and joyful. We get excited after looking at our favorite toy, candy or chocolate. No one expects much from us, we receive love and care without being judged. We learn new things with full intensity.
A seed that was sown grows into a tree, that tree now has to face winds, heat, storm, drought and many more changes. Similarly humans when grow has to face various situational changes.
It is not possible to predict with even reasonable accuracy what the individual’s future development will look like.
As we grow up it also grows expectations. A constant fear of being judged, fear of failures, fear of not being capable enough and a feeling of nothingness. Gradually the world that looked like a rainbow to us when we were infant now looks all faded. Now we have so high expectations that we feel nothing for things we once loved.
We are in a constant battle with ourselves. We try to prove our capabilities to other which make growing up even more difficult. We keep running after things and when we fail everything that was once glowing seems to be dull. We develop a feeling of nothingness and end up questioning our abilities every day. Once we fail everyone is ready with box of their judgement and opinions to give you a title of failure.
Infancy was just table of content of our life real book begins after your failures. The bitterest phase of life that will only bring sweetest results if you have faith on yourself. A lack of meaning or purpose in life is common at some point of life. However sometimes you feel nothing neither joy nor pain. Nothing excites you much. It can also bring you many physical issues such as sleep deprivation, weight loss and always feeling exhausted.
Losing touch with yourself is worst phase of life. A lack of insight into yourself may lead you to feel completely empty. It means that you might have no clarity on the type of person you are or the one you want to become. Sometimes this is caused due to our bad past experiences. When we don’t openly talk or explore our emotions that have been with us for long time. Even if it feels painful, talking about past events that caused you grief may help you process them.
Adult life needs an emotional intimacy, support and active listeners of their problem.
Failures will either bring you feeling of nothingness or courage to stand up for yourself.
Questioning your abilities will never bring peace to you. Working on your own betterment and skills will definitely make you a better version of yourself. After sitting with your feeling in an empty room, try to explore yourself. Connect with your loved ones and talk what you feel.
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