My poem-in search of myself

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In Search of Myself

Written By: Sk. Abdul Aziz on Tuesday, 11 Oct, 2011



I'm a dreamer......I dream the unreal

   Reality for me is quite surreal

I am not pragmatic

Just at times a bit sarcastic

Hatred is annoying

Love is pacifying

Would be suffice.....

.....to say dat I value sacrifice

At times feel fed up of livin' in this domain of enchantment

Would like to run away and live in solitary confinement

At times am paranoid by hustle and bustle of the city

The condition of the village folks fills my heart with pity

The everyday routine of life is just so mundane

The 11 to 6 stuff feels kinda' insane......

Wanna escape from life just like an escapist

Fear is something we can't run from.....sooner or later we gotta face it

I ain't gonna appear in the books of history

Might as well vanish off the planet like a mystery

If I ever contemplate returning to this crazy place

I'd leave it long enough so that they won't recognize my face

Have I lost my clarity of thoughts?

Life seems blank....can't seem to connect the dots

I share a last cigarette with my friend and walk into the station

Purchase a ticket to an alien destination

I'm not a bad guy.....just at times suffer fom frustration

Need a shoulder to rest my head....just need some motivation

I just wanna be heard.....don't need my name up in lights

Am a coolheaded guy........never really get into fights

I feel as if i'm stuck in a tricky maze

Gotta clear my mind....seems to in a state of haze

At times i'm confused and dazed

The beauty of girls just leaves me amazed

I rap about love......rap about hate....

You can't manipulate me.....can't use me as a bait....

Superstition is nothin' more than a fallacy

Loyalty nowadays is quite a rarity

The path to glory is always filled with resistance

In the end it's the experience dat matters and not the journey's distance

I used to have an idea of where I stand

But now the idea's slipped right out of my hands

I don't who I am and where i'm going

The current of life is guiding my boat....i'm simply rowing

I'm done with bein' a sissy and sheddin' tears.....

It's time to be brave and conquer my fears

Gotta re-ignite my spirit....gotta keep the fire burnin'

No more lookin' back....no more turnin'

Music don't impress no more....movies don't excite me.....

Everybody seems to have a problem with me.....everybody wanna fight me.....

I need some time.....need some space......

Can't live no more within this crazy human race...

Wanna embark upon a path of rediscovery

Wanna improve my life and dispel off my misery

At times the thought of isolation scares me....

It strips me off my sense of morals and bares me

But when I give it a deep thought I realize...."Isolation's been my inspiration."

I gotta leave...gotta go....

There's nothin' here for me no more....

I gotta be free.......I gotta be...

.....Somewhere that I can just be me.

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awesome poem!!! it's great to know that some of the c.a students having such an excellent literary side as well...thnx for sharing.

awesome!! its really nice. well done.

Good one, presented beautifully...

Once again very nice poem.....

Simply Superb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:)

Dear Abdul,

Reality for you may be surreal but your creation is not an work of surrealism. It is a blend of Romanticism and Agnosticism as far as my knowledge and understanding take me. Unlike a surrealist, your work of art contains neither any unexpected juxtapositions nor any non sequitur. It may only be a bit obfuscated.

It reminds me of works of those supreme intellects - suffering from ataxia - who couldn't find their ways during the World War periods or in our case, during the first three decades of the Post-Independence period. They were no less confused than what you are today.

"Can't live no more within this crazy human race...

Wanna embark upon a path of rediscovery

Wanna improve my life and dispel off my misery

At times the thought of isolation scares me....

It strips me off my sense of morals and bares me

But when I give it a deep thought I realize...."Isolation's been my inspiration."

I gotta leave...gotta go....

There's nothin' here for me no more....

I gotta be free.......I gotta be...

.....Somewhere that I can just be me."

 

What impresses me most about your work, is its flow - as Resham has rightly pointed out while commenting on your first poem. You possess a gift - gift of flair for writing.

"Isolation's been my inspiration." 


Yes, it is, - for any creative mind, regardless of time.

I sincerely think that somehow you must get rid of such colossal confusion and get along with the CA course. Finish it. Long time ago, while reading a biography of Vincent Van Gogh a poem - not of the highest caliber but certainly worth remembering - got imprinted in my mind :

Doctors' fees are heavy,

Lawyers' fees are high;

Artists are supposed to entertain,

... And DIE."

I'd never even dream of such a fate for such a nice mind ( I wonder who will). So, finish your CA with the determination of a materialist. And then take the literary path with all seriousness. There's no reason why we can't have another Chetan Bhagat or a Sk. Abdul Aziz who will inspire his next generation in his own way.


Endure the pain, the confusion, the inhumanity of human-like beings and one day, sure as anything, your talent will fly - like a Phoenix bird, leaving the ashes far far behind.


Best of luck.


AWESOME POEM BRO

NICE PRESENTATION

THANKS A LOT

KEEP SHARING

awesome poem, presented with nice words

Originally posted by : aditya

awesome poem!!! it's great to know that some of the c.a students having such an excellent literary side as well...thnx for sharing.

cheers

Good 1 dude..Keep writing n sharing..U got such a nice talent of writing rather than just knowledge of debit n credit like us...

Have read only the first 10 lines till now... and am already envying you...hehe... in a good way ofcourse... coz it will surely inspire me to write better than what I have been writing...


Will read the whole in leisure... coz your work is such that can be best devoured in leisure...


@ Saurav Da - Aapko takkar dene layak reply likhna padega...;)

Originally posted by : GAUTAM DEY

AWESOME POEM BRO

NICE PRESENTATION

THANKS A LOT

KEEP SHARING

good talents finish off ur CA Career too besides being a poet 

Originally posted by : aditya

awesome poem!!! it's great to know that some of the c.a students having such an excellent literary side as well...thnx for sharing.
Good One . Very Inspirational


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