Icai ruined my dreams & confidence.......

Now 100% I believe.....Institute gives marks blindly... n centrewise itne bure din bhi nhi aye the previous attmpt se 50 marks kam agya ...DT me paper me 100 marks attmpt kiya 40 toh bachha ka bhi ajata expectd 60 but given 37 ISCA me last time 52 ths time evn better done got 29 AMA last time 53 got 37....also done bttr thn previous what should I do with ths demoralizing marks.........ab toh right padhne me bhi darr lagta...hai.....just one thng ICAI don't play with deserving candidates...we evry effrt our 6 mnths....!