I am a loser

hello friends.. I think I am the biggest loser in thin this world.i started my cpt after 12th completed cptbin 2nd attempt...I was good at studies and use to love to study. after CPT I registered for IPCC but I was really nervous and I took it lightly I didnt gave the exam...missed I my first attempt.... second attempt also I skipped....I use to study but I didnt have any confidence. after skipping this two attempts I was really tensed and in tension and some my family matters I skipped third attempt also.. yes I skipped three precious attempt of ipcc. I completed my graduation now. but I am really depressed this is my fourth attempt frankly speaking I dnt know anything in the syllabus I ll have to start a fresh but I lack confidence. I dont want to quit ca. but I lack confidence. I plan to study but I am not able to implement it. I am a loser...... I am not able to study now. b