5 years wasted...because of ca

i wrote 11 attempts till now.....
i...decided to not to write again...leaving ca.

For cause of ca....i hav lost 5years of time...many people r criticizing me that i not even completed cpt....my juniors who r 5 years younger than me r also completing...but myself im always failed with the variance of 2 to 4 marks difference...
but my in my life the period of 5YEARS are totally wasted with CA...none can understand that pain....
the people who known me asking again n again wherever i go...it makes more pain in my heart and causing more disturbance n killing my mental peace each and every second.....
already i posted earlier a post regarding my cpt attempts...this is the last post were i will never post again about ca and cpt....
with tears in my eyes GOOD BYE TO C.A.