one needs to have both strong heart and brain to be a successful and consistent player of this game of becoming ca.
i.e.mutual understanding between
brain+heart=power to contemplate success+courage to bear risks involved
so get up tighten up ur belt and fight again if u r moving in right direction then no one has the courage to stop u frm achieving ur as well as ur parents dream.so go for it and gv ur best shot again b'coz if u'll bcome ca then lyf wud be a cke walk for u and its been rightly said " if it is to be, it is up to me".