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Hi all,

Those who have read my posts before please dont read it. 

It was december 2008 when i started my CA journey. Mujhe nahi maloom tha CA kya hota hai ,uska kaam kya hota hai, wo karta kya hai aur uski value kya hai. I was academically good. A first class graduate.Cleared IPCC in2009 and then in 2011(2nd grp). aur ye sab maine achieve kiya bina samjhe, ratta lagake. Mujhe bas ye feel ho raha tha ke I lack something par kya uski samajh nahi thi..bilkul bacha tha.Kitabo ke bahar ki duniya bhi nahi samjhi thi iss liye anari (anadi)  bhi tha(aur abhi bhi saayad hu). Ye sab tab realise hua jab IPCC ki coachings chal rahi thi ke kuch toh gadbad hai. Budhi nahi thi aur na jankari ke kis se baat karu aur kya kya batau.Second year ke exams hone se pehle hi mann padhai se hatt gaya.jaise taise karke ca aur graduation mein ache marks laya. But andar mein na kuch khushi thi na koi aur emotion. Filmy tha aur 3Idiots ki movie ko galat interpret kar liya. Asal mein mujhe wo film samajh aayi hi nahi thi..maine jaise bataya ki main dimaag se bacha tha, bhola tha ya nadaan tha.Main depression mein tha aur mujhe ye pata chala in 2013....kyuki ca final ki coaching main kar chuka tha aur class mein as usual sab samajh aata tha aur enjoy karta tha because i was studious in my school days.Maine Papa ke darr se Bina preparation ke 3 baar CA final mein exams diye. and Failed, shattered, next to death. Khud ka Tamasha ban Gaya.

I wasted my 8 years from 2013 to 2021 in depression aur ye time kab gujra pata hi nahi chala. all this while i was crying on my fate.You can see I am not Good in English as well. mujhe baht bombarding language lagti hai ye.

I was Dummy because I went into depression so in my case dont be angry to this fact.

Main emotionally baht weak hu, rone lagta hu. May be I was not made for CA..but studies has been my passion besides watching movies. Mere saath jo bhi thay progress kar gaye because they were practical and adult and some of them had good knowledge of LinkdIn ,websites,blogs,freelancing blah blah blah. matlab extraordinary but perfect for the profession.Mujhe toh inn sab ka matlab bhi nahi pata tha.

I had other family issues also ,sabke ghar mein hote hai, der se samajh aayi.

 

Now let me tell you about my current position.I have converted myself in new syllabus.CA Final hi hai jo main kar sakta hu academically. I am 31 now Shaadi nahi hui aur saayad hogi bhi nahi. Akela reh jaunga, khalipan andar se khayega kyuki koi hoga hi nahi baat karne ke liye. Sabko ek friendly partner chahiye.

 

Mujhe aaj bhi excel tak nahi aata hai. Aur bahar ki duniya bhi kam dekhi hai. Mujhe kaafi logon ne ye bhin kaha hai ke yaar CA chhodo aur business karo acha kamaoge, sab naukri waise bhi nahi karna chahte. 

Agar koi comment karna chahta hai then send me a private message. Akash is not my real name, depression ki wajah se badla hua hai.

Mere koi dreams ya goals nahi rahe kabhi...i was just going with the flow. 2017 mein ek MNC join ki ..logon ne bade maje liye and maine sab kuch jhela aur kisi ko like bhi karne laga tha.2019 mein maine wo company chhodd di. I was not well.

 

Basic excel aur tally janta hu. Ek chota bhai hai jo kama raha hai. papa hai jo kama rahe hai aur main khali baitha hu and i am waiting ke kab main padhai start karke CA banu.Ek Dost jarur chahta hu because I am very alone. I dont need sympathy. 

 

Personality mein defect hai. LinkdIn aur baki badi badi baaton ki bhi jaankari nahin hai.

Mujhe nahi pata CA karne ke baad main kya karu?

Agar meri situation samajh mein aapko aayi hai toh please mujhe kuch suggest kare aur comment kijiye ya private message kijiye. Main motivational videos baht dekh chuka mere upar asar nahi hota toh plz dont recommend.

 

Maine meri CA ki journey mein offline baht help ki hai . Aaj mujhe help chahiye .

MAin Apni life se kya chahta hu?

Khush rehna. Bina kisi regret ke. Today I have this answer.

 

Bas I think maine baht paka diya hoga. HELP ME.

Aap Bahutu hi a happy insaan hai. Aap itna lucky hai, app Fortune 500 company mein Kaam karsakte ho IndAS mein. There is something good for you now. So don’t regret as you will be updated ca with IndAS. Finish it off and work and settle. If your worried about things, take counselling and things will be back to normal. All the best.