29 July 2016
I am set to appear for my fourth attempt of Chartered Accountancy Final exams. I have skipped 3 chances in expectation of a rank but in spite of 'preparing' for the past 3 years at home i have not yet completed the topics at least once. I've lost the willpower, determination, motivation and most importantly my self confidence. I have always been an intelligent student with a great academic track record. But now with these multiple attempts in CA I've spoilt my own record. Please understand that I come from a background where even my younger brothers are employed and married as well as my friends.
I'm the only one who has failed an exam, ever. But I am home - empty-handed. I feel insecure facing my family. I've stopped participating in discussions around the dinner table. I feel insignificant and have nothing to contribute. Will I never be able to achieve success because I've failed an exam? I just feel so guilty for wasting away all the love resources and comfort that my parents shower on me. I don't even deserve all of it. I've just been a continual source of disappointment to them. Some days I wish they never had me; wish they had a better daughter. Someone who they would be proud of. I am in a dilemma - whether to write my exams or not. Please reply
29 July 2016
The greatest ENEMY of human being is COMPARISON. You are the VICTIM of that. Why the hell you want to look around you...can't you look within you? Stop taking tension of your surrounding.
Who the hell told you to run after RANK.....who the hell set that high a standard for you? And mind you...you have NOT failed in exam...you said you skipped exam...right?
Your surrounding is proving to be your strain......try to change it...discover the power of silence....do yoga....pranayam Slowly but steadily you will come out of this trauma.....All the best
CAclubindia
