Khushi Speaks-part 10- Life is what you make it
Apollo Delhi, Present Day
With this Rachit burst into tears. Khushi hugged him and gave him a glass of water.
‘You know what your problem is Rachit?’, Khushi said. ‘You have a habit to quit. You don’t like to face problems head on,but have developed a habit of escapism’.
‘What made you say this?’, Rachit asked.
‘Rite from your IIT days to CA life that is what you are doing man...quit...on one hand you claim to be strong, your heart knows that you run from reality. You made Radhika paid for your habit and now your father is suffering coz of that...ek baar bhi unke baare mein nahi socha suicide attempt karne se pehle!!’
‘Khushi just shut up...you don’t know anything, so please don’t judge me...you can never understand what amount of pain I have gone through’, said Rachit angrily.
‘And you can never understand the pain Radhika had gone through without any fault of her. Her only fault was to love you...in fact you were her life. Nobody forced you to do CA. It was all your decision. Your first mistake was to choose CA and quitting B.Tech, coz it was hurting your ego. A sensible person should have concentrated to improve his health in that time and should have prepared for next year JEE. But you were not able to digest the fact that all your friends will become your senior or maybe you won’t be able to get the same college (IIT). Rachit, CA no doubt, is a brilliant line, but it was not your dream. You should have followed your dream of being an engineer.’
‘Even if it was at the cost of one year and settling for a mediocre college??’, Rachit asked.
‘So what...people drop 2-3 years in preparation of medical and then also they settle for an average medical college’.
‘I don’t want to discuss that...I have lost my Radhika and now I don’t have any purpose to live’.
‘This is your second problem. You never discuss problems. You just take decisions and expect everyone around you to adjust their life accordingly. Firstly without discussing with your father and Radhika, the two most important persons of your life, you decided to quit engineering. Radhika suffered from insomnia coz of you...you assumed that she won’t understand your problems. On the other hand instead of facing them, you started to ignore them.’
‘I had a tough life. I thought I can solve my problems on my own. I thought she would understand. It was just a matter of few months. I was not going anywhere.’
‘Not going anywhere......dude you were never with her. I am not talking about the physical distance but the emotional part. It was always about you. You only talked to her when you needed her. You used her as a stress-buster. She just needed some attention. Love is not about being in relationship, but living the relationship. If you were with your friends or were enjoying, you hardly cared for her. She used to wait for you and finally died waiting for you. She was murdered...your self-obsession killed her...You were very lucky to have her, but all you gave her was lifelong pain.’
‘That’s why I tried to commit suicide coz I was the reason of her suffering.’
‘As if that would have made her spirit happy. Idiot she wanted to see you happy. She wanted you to be a successful CA. Even in her last time, she was praying that you should do CA with your whole heart. She never doubted your skills. At the time of your negative result she wanted to be with you...to hold your hands, be in your arms and say that Rachit I trust you, and I know you will be a very successful man. And what you have done. You accused her to be the reason of your failure and left her all alone to suffer. She came to Delhi all there from Chennai to celebrate your birthday and you left her coz of your negative result’.
‘But I came back...may be a bit late’.
‘Nopes, you came back as per your convenience i.e. when you had restored your pride or in other words satisfied your ego. Her love was not dependent on your professional achievements Rachit. Our Soulmate is the one who remains with us throughout our journey of life. We all know that life is not that simple and throughout our journey in life we might face numerous challenges, problems and setbacks. The difference between people who succeed in life and who don’t is their ability to face life challenges correctly and not the absence of challenges.’
‘I had never tasted failure in my life. I didn’t know how to react. I thought if I would remove all my connections with this world for few months everything would become fine. I got rank in next attempt’.
‘You would have anyway got rank Rachit. In your last attempt you missed by just 3 marks in total...that mean you knew your subjects well, but all you needed was a bit of more effort. How much it takes to talk for 20 minutes to your beloved. It was not like you were studying 24 hours. It’s all in the mind and about love. Life is not designed for people to succeed from the first attempt. There are two kinds of people- one who expects easy success, a smooth life that has relatively few bumps and of quick success; and other who understands that they need to try more than once in order to get what they want. You belong to first category that is extremely vulnerable to life problems and challenges. Instead of finding solutions you blame others for your loss. You can’t avoid setbacks but you can learn how to bounce back each time you face one.’
‘And what should I am supposed to do now?’
‘First of all learn to control your emotions. Don’t let your emotions overrule your decisions. What is your hobby?’
‘Well I like writing’
‘Dats great...just pen down your thoughts. Only a calm mind can take proper decision. Don’t let her memories haunt you, but her love should be your motivation. Your hard time is over. You are in Finals and most of your articleship is also done. Concentrate on your finals and give time to your family. Uncle needs you a lot. Whatever you have done cannot be reversed. So don’t give much stress to your brain’.
‘Shhh....now relax. Take some rest now. We will talk tomorrow.’
‘Thanks’, Rachit said with eyes full of gratitude.
‘For listening to my story and making me feel better’.
‘I’ll always be there for you Rachit’, Khushi said assuring him.
‘Means???’, Rachit was surprised.
‘Nothing...just close your eyes and sleep...ok’
Apollo Delhi, Next Day
Rachit opened his eyes and saw the smiling faces of Diksha and Shalini.
‘Finally you have opened your eyes dude...we were so worried for you’, Diksha said.
‘Then where were you yesterday when I was all alone here and crying in pain. Thank God Khushi was there to help me out’, Rachit said.
‘What??’, Shalini shouted.
‘Why...what happened’?, Rachit asked in a puzzled manner.
‘Rachit you were in Coma for the past 72 hours due to head injury caused by the impact of fall’, Diksha said.
I know many of you must be in a state of shock and raising questions about my existence. Don’t worry I am not Radhika’s Ghost who had came in Rachit’s dream. Then who am I?? Well it’s very simple ...I am Khushi i.e. happiness. I am always with you but you people are so engaged in your own world that you often ignore me. You may be also relate me with your inner voice. Following your heart and listening to your inner voice is a method to attain me. Just like in a loud noise of a heavy metal you often missed a smooth beat, similarly you people are so engaged in one big problem that you often missed various forms of me. If you can’t enjoy the happiness of one moment again and again, then why you think about one problem repeatedly!!
I can be found in many ways- Professional Success, Shades of Love, Flavours of Relationship, Victory in competition etc. But practically they all are my elements; just like there are different elements of life. They together in combination complete me. If one is professionally very successful but has a messed up personal life, he can never be happy. There is no point of getting success when your loved ones are not with you. Rachit secured rank in CA but at the cost of his love i.e. Radhika.
Things move far too fast in the hustle bustle of today’s world and you can often be left feeling as though you hardly have any time for your family, friends and leisure time with incessant work commitments, not to mention any time for yourself. But you can easily maintain it by making a balance between your personal and professional life. You s’d overview, prioritise things and accordingly make lists. There are many students who are doing CA and are also committed. But not all of them have a messed up life. They know both the things are equally important and they plan accordingly. If you think CA is the only line where you have no time for yourself then you are wrong. In medical one has to attend lectures, and then they have practicals, internship, exams, self-study and simulataneously their love life to handle. Even after becoming doctor their situation doesn’t improve much.
So the best think is to enjoy every moment of life, take it as it come and above all never quit coz life is very precious.
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
- Author unknown
3 Months, 10 Parts, 26250 Hits in article section, 613 Comments- 394 (in forum section) + 219 (in articles section)...these figures sums up the love my first series “Life is what you make it” has got from my CCites. It was an emotional and a very remarkable journey. Rachit and Radhika are part of my life now, and I have started living a bit of them. Many of you have asked me one question that, “Whether this is my story??”...well my answer is some part of this story has been the part of everyone’s life – whether it was Rachit’s proposal to Radhika, leaving home for classes, chilling out with friends at Paranthe wali Gali, failures and success in CA, ignoring your loved ones, long distance relationship, pain of separation and above all living someone’s else life...yes you have read it right...most of us are doing which we never wanted to do...but I strongly believe that now whatever we are doing we should do with full heart. As every beautiful journey has an end, so I complete my journey with this series and may be some other beautiful journey is waiting for me...the beauty of life is its uncertainty...
We should take life as it comes...enjoy every moment of it as another shade of our life...there are two options to live- one to face problems with a smile along with your loved one and another is to escape the problems and die in frustration...You know why....because “LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT”.
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Link to other parts
Part one Part two Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9